aaaahhhhhh!!!!!

so here i am in las vegas. thank god. i'm sitting on a giant bed covered in soft white sheets with white feather pillows and big fluffy white down blankets. i feel like a princess. yay! i love it when that happens. alex really set everything up well for me. i'm really quite impressed. he's seemed quite organized about me coming to visit. weird.
we went to margarita ville last night. we sat on the third floor balcony overlooking the strip. i could see the monte carlo in the distance. all the things that are familiar make me miss tonya, they are familiar because of her. i didn't think of that before i came. it's ok though. i need these things to happen to me. i don't ever want to forget. hurricane emily is brushing us over. there was lightning in the sky last night. dessert lightning is so beautiful. i'm so content. i needed this. to get out of vermont and my own head. i'm gonna go to the gym and the pool today, and do some research for TIC. i feel so healthy. what a nice change.